Things that could not be documented


I am very much tempted to begin this blogpost with a cliche statement about how apologetic I am, for not having blogged in  such a long time, frankly I am not.

I am not apologetic for very simple but selfish reasons: I have enjoyed every little bit of experience I had over the past year, I learned from big medical giants whose names grace medical book spines, that my freind is truly better enjoyed alone. You dont want to titrate the concentration by jotting and sharing every piece of learning with audience.

the second reason for my minimal blogging comes from my backpaking expeience to Zimbambwe, sometime this year. I normaly share my travel experiences on social media, one time while frustated looking for a power socket to charge my iphone so I can post my photoes on facebook, I asked myself: would I have taken this trip, if I were to leave my camera? How much of my travel experience is synthetic to look asthetic on social media?

I think that trend of thought translates to also the experiences we choose to document online? What events do I decide to be posted and what qualifies the omission of certain events?

these questions have made me sort of skeptical about the lived experiences I decide to cement by journaling them. I think the most parts that take our breath away in travel, or the events that teach us more about ourselves and life, are the events that are abrassive and cruel, we learn the most in hardships more than in our laugther, unfortunatly those are the experiences we do not want to document or snap them.

I am all that I have experienced, I grew the most during the tough times of leaving an enriching experience.


I couldn`t help not to :/

Student leadership when everything else is #Falling


pic1There are two types of leaders,“born leaders and situational leaders”. Situational leaders will come from unexpected places to carry the baton, the required distance. Born leaders are always there to live by example, especially during difficult times.


Recently we have observed that good leadership almost always translates to social change. In making sense of the task of bringing about social change through good leadership, we first need to understand the meaning of the word, leadership should be defined as the ability to go ahead; to bring together an action and a vision of the future in order to produce change.

The world as we currently know it is in dire need of good ethical leaders who will not merely fight to maintain the status quo”, but leaders “who see a better future and act accordingly”.

I believe that these leaders are out there, they are not necessarily the loud ones with the molokotov  but they are the quite observers who are hesitant to raise their hand and speak out as.They have the depth and  degree of leadership required to bring about change. This form of leadership does not only demonstrate personal efforts, but embodies self-sacrifice, exhibits influence, and uses systems worth following, to accomplish a task.

As a shepherd leads his flock to the safety of home at nightfall, so too shall these leaders follow from behind and be watchful as the people take responsibility of their familiar tasks. A shepherd’s most important task is to merely keep his flock united but to also gently steer them in the right direction, especially those who are most prone to stray away.

The revolutions of the past and present were started by young people, the #Fallists movements as an example where persons between the ages twenty and forty are at the heart of these uprisings. We saw a similar trend in the Apartheid struggle of the past and the current student uprisings demanding equitable access to a decolonized tertiary education.

The time is still coming were a new form of thought leaders will take the center stage and facilitate the change we all need. Their fundamental purpose would be to help us re imagine the South Africa we would all like to live in 10 20 years from now. It shall be the younger generation that will steer the country to routes that will help us reach that destination the quickest and safest.  This is a matter of tremendous important to our future, it can not be left in the hands childish old people.  People younger than twenty are too naive to challenge society and people older than forty are too comfortable with the status quo to do anything about it.

Finally these sort of leadership that will usher us to a South Africa of our envisioning are facing a tedious task of striking the ying-yand of leadership, where they have to “take the moderate route”, and always fine-tuning the balance of “overt”activism with often unacknowledged “covert” actions. They will have to differentiate between urgent tasks and the important ones, and when key issues require action;as timing is very important. 

Minimalism for creative writing

18ha02cpzajf0jpgI have always boggled with the idea of writing a book, I am finally in a creative space that always for that to happen. To stimulate the creative process I have adopted minimalism as a lifestyle. Side note to my sister, before she tells my mom, that  I am to strange practices , Its basically living only on what I need, 2 pairs of jeans, 2 pairs of shoes, sleeping on the floor and eating when I am hungry.
I find minimalism quite stimulating for writing, as it cuts off most junk that has been part of my life. Aag!Tangent! back to the book. I have fictionalized my lived experiences to allow more room for creativity and play with the characters.
I am a very self-contradictory person, a trait that surely comes through in my book, to embrace that I have decided to use a type-writer to tell these stories. I think old-school technologies have a character we have lost in our modern devices. Everything a type-writer needs to type words is all within itself. You don`t need to worry about plugging it to a power sources or download a software to make it work,its self sufficient. Look at a book, everything that makes a book a ‘book’ is in it, no amazon sign-up no batteries just simple powerful technology.
I decided to share the first page with everyone, but that it, everything else will be done off line on my Remington typewriter of of 1940.
I am partially off the greed, well of social media really, except as a pseudo account I will be using. The main character in my book has a Facebook account, by the name of Donna Klass, its everything through her lenses.

The sphinx


I separate and unite
I break and mend .
I mold and remold.
I evolve wings like Horus.

I am unseen but felt,
A drizzle of oil over fire.
I am a restoration for fearlessness
The me, who is me now is immortal.

Hold fast to those dreams
For if dreams die,
The phoenix will not rise from those ashes

Why is End of Block such a big deal?


To all my non-medical friends, I think I need to clear this for the sake of our friendship.

1. I am still cool, seriously I am.
2. I know I have been ignoring you and accusing studying or sleeping for it.
3. I still know how to have fun, even though these days it involves spending a few rands and cents.

Anyway back to my point, I wanted to explain why end of block (EOB) is such a big thing in my life and by extension to your life now.

A block is a period, usually 4-6 weeks, we we learn about a certain topic,eg Pathology, it a period that involves going through everything there is to know about the pathologies of the body, other than that it can involve going through coffee and cigarettes like a pedophile going through a child underwear drawer.

Now this is probably important for our future engagement, please pay more attention, when we finish a block, we have to write a test on that particular topic we were doing in those 6 weeks. You literally go through the whole textbook,yes the WHOLE textbook.

To do well in your EOB you must also master every past paper they ever asked in the last decade. You must also have consumed more that a tank of black coffee.

Yesterday I wrote my first EOB in med school, I nailed it. But thats besides the point. My point is:

1. After writing EOB, the first 22 hours I want to sleep
2. I want to eat real warm food
3. I want to do the things that remind me I am still a real human, like walking to beach, going to the township
4. Doing those whole night prayers

I hope this explains why I have been acting funny the past 8 months. I now declare my schedule open to having fun, but only until Monday. Monday I am starting a new block in Pharmacology (Pharms), Yes that means I will be learning every drug ever invented by men and gods.

Your friend
Dr WannaBe

From my book: A beautiful mess




I told this kid he should stay away, I am too much of a mess to deal with a human being, especially a cute boy who says he likes me. I don`t even think I like boys for that matter. Honestly I never had to deal with person who says they love me. Love is a strange concept to unravel, It never makes sense, I hate things that do n`t make sense. I am very mathematical in my approach in life, sometimes I think I am too logical I miss out on important things in life.

Why did I even come back to this town? I truly hate home, I think I have leaved too much on my own and for far too long, as such I can not relate to my won family, I love them with a strange kind of love, even though I never told them, but I think they sort of know. I do n`t really know much about my family, I know we sort of share this house and my fathers money, but that`s basically it, that all I know about them.

My dad still believes the South African educational system is not to advance the black child, He says the apartheid government changed the good old British Education that came with the missionaries together with Christianity into Bantu Education. My father spent some time in Bulawayo, Zimbabwe during his days with the MK. He came back to South Africa at the dawn of democracy, with my mother to serve government officials. My mom is a simple farmer girl from Zimbabwe, she is simple in the true meaning of the word. Her family were tobacco farmers, who were later killed by the Mugabe `s land expropriation regime.

I can`t tell you jerk about my sister and brother, I just know they are my siblings. As soon as my front milk tooth fell off I was sent back to Harare to start my alimentary education, who does that? who sends a mixed race child to a foreign racist, anti-white land? My father always says it was for my own good, but that`s rubbish, I think he was too shameful of having to raise a bipolar schizophrenic child. I still hate my mom for not having stopped him, I hate her submissiveness to everything my father says, it hurts me.

I can swear they are glad I will be moving to Cape Town to study medicine. These people really hate my presence in this family. They forced me to study medicine so I can be as far as I can from them and for as long as possible.
I can`t catch feeling now, I can barely bare with the madness of my own mind and now imagine having to learn to love a homo sapien?

Is it time for politics to be a regulated market?

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I do not usually blog on politics, but then again we do not usually have the kind of messy and exciting political scenes both regionally and globally as we do today. Whether we talk Zille, Zuma, Zimbambwe or Ztrump. History has shown us the enormous significance politics has on people`s lives  around the world.

However, this is not simply a political blog in many respects I see it as a marketing or ethical exploration of political marketing. And indeed politics has much to do with marketing.

If we view politics as a market where promises and manifestos are sold in exchange of profits, is it not about time for politics to be a regulated market?, I  wear not only the hats of a concerned  citizen but also that of an objective outside observer.

As an observer I see a world that is heavily regulated. You cannot sell pharmaceuticals, electrical goods, electronics, children’s goods, food (& tobacco of course!), cars and automobiles, insurance, banking and other financial services, houses to buy or rent, and others, without meeting specific safety and other regulations. And the entire marketplace is covered by regulations on advertising and unfair trade descriptions.

Similarly, the directors of companies are liable for the acts of those companies when they affect safety and human well-being or the economic welfare of the organisation.

There is no equivalent governance and regulation over political advertising. Normally the counter urgument is Section 16, well lets deal with the bogeyman of freedom of speech out of the way. Freedom of speech is not the issue: it applies as much to the marketing of any of these markets as it does to politics. Freedom of speech is the right to an opinion, a point of view, and to express it. It does not give you the right to deceive. But in politics we have all got used to deception as business as usual.

Of course, the institutional rivalry of politics means that the different parties contest and challenge claims. The problem is that this is an unsatisfactory solution. Committed followers of party X do not pay much attention when the members of party Y tell them that party X is telling them porkies. If they read the wrong paper they may even not see it. This is basic social psychology. And some are clearly better rhetoricians than others.

Politicians, and journalists, can make claims and promises that turn out to be untrue. Should  not only get egg thrown in their faces, but  what they say must meet legally reinforced standards of evidence if they state something risky as fact or deliberately overlook evidence to the contrary of their position.

We have plenty of experience of dealing with uncertainty in claims. Financial markets are always making predictions and they know that they have to emphasise that uncertainty. Pharmaceutical companies also market their drugs with both medical claims and information about possible side effects and risks. What would have happened if the politicians, on both sides of the fance, would be required to be careful in presenting evidence, and the limits of reliability on that evidence, rather than being given a free hand to offer opinionated  aspirational claims and promises?

Some might say that it will make politics too complicated. I would say that we are making extraordinarily important decisions in ways that are way too simplistic.

Some will say that people already do not believe politicians. There is much cynicism, but we should be careful to differentiate between cynicism about the other party’s point of view and scepticism about your own party’s claims. The latter is very important for good democracy.